Abandoned …let’s pray

Yesterday Uakeisha (check out our podcast Kolorflow Conversations on YouTuve) sent me Luke 11:9-10 it reminded me of the verses I once held so near and dear to my heart:

Matthew 7:7-8

“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.”

I told her I buried that verse years ago… life sometimes does that to you… causes you to bury the unanswered prayers.

I’ve experienced loss in so many forms a job I depended on, a dream I was certain would come true, the death of my mother, relationships I thought would last, and the deep ache of knowing I didn’t always get things right as a parent.

I find myself standing in the rubble of what used to be, wondering how something so certain could slip away.

I guess some things slip through your fingers no matter how tightly you hold them, no matter how much love or effort you pour in.

Doors close before you even get the chance to knock.

You plant seeds, but the harvest never comes.

So, I stopped asking.

I stopped searching.

I stopped knocking.

and not because I don’t believe but because I am too tired to try again…

“believe it to see it” right

I stand on that with my clients, but not myself.

God is not a genie, but He is a loving Father who answers when we ask, seek, and knock. Sometimes, the answer comes quickly through an open door, a shift in circumstances, or even through a friend, who was a vessel of His provision for me.

I was stressed out about the snow not only for myself but for my father as well…

I am deeply grateful that my friend, Syn, handled mine without me even having to ask!

I also know that some prayers remain unanswered. The answer is a clear ‘no’ and for me that can be very difficult to accept, especially when I don’t understand why.

A ‘no’ from God is never rejection; it’s redirection. An unanswered prayer is not abandonment; it’s an invitation to trust Him beyond what we can see… so if you’re like me and still waiting, or if you’ve received a ‘no’ you didn’t expect, don’t lose heart. Keep asking, keep seeking, keep knocking and because God will always say ‘yes,’ but because He is always good, and His plans are always greater than ours.

I guess buried things have a way of coming back to life… and maybe, just maybe, what was lost was never forgotten in the unseen realm.

May I hang on to God’s promises as best I can as I go through this difficult season of life.

Truth is… most days, if not all I hate life.

Heavenly Father,

There are moments when the weight of loss, disappointment, and unanswered prayers feels unbearable. When I look around and see emptiness where there was once certainty, when the people I counted on are no longer here, when the dreams I held so tightly have slipped away I feel abandoned.

But, Lord, I know You have never left me. Even when I don’t feel Your presence, even when my prayers seem to echo back in silence, You are near. You see the tears I don’t show, You hear the prayers I can’t put into words, and You hold every shattered piece of my heart in Your hands.

I lift up every person who feels like I do who stands in the ruins of what once was, who wonders if they are forgotten, who longs for reassurance that You are still working in their lives. Wrap them in Your love. Whisper to their hearts that they are not alone. Remind them, and remind me, that even in the wilderness, even in the waiting, You are faithful.

Lord, give us the strength to keep walking when we don’t know where the path leads. Give us the courage to trust You when everything feels uncertain. And when we don’t have the words, let Your Spirit intercede for us with groanings too deep for words.

We may feel abandoned, but we are not. Because You are the God who never forsakes, the One who walks beside us even in the valley.

In Jesus name, Amen.