Birthday Trip 2024, a poem

I let the terror

inside of me get to me

and I canceled the trip I planned just for me

the 111 123 wasn’t enough to stop the enemy

I didn’t care about a sign or a synchronicity

here’s where it gets tricky

while not clinically depressed

I’ve been stressed

forgetting how blessed I am

forgetting who’s I am

I will never apologize

or minimize only emphasize

I am the prize

I sympathize

but all y’all can’t come on this ride

I don’t drive

so I need to trust who’s on my left side

whether it’s passenger princess or being chauffeured

rest assured

I ain’t letting shit slide

I’m releasing it all from the inside

that one time I tried to commit -

this ain’t classified

news or for views

just letting y’all know like the symbolism of a crow

I’m a mystery, a little bit of trickery

so don’t fuck with me

I know what’s for me is for me

third eye, I see

God took me down a new avenue

this is why I act brand new

what you remember is my residue

I’m no Maya Angelou

but I rise

I don’t demonize

what my ancestors did for me

I don’t apologize for my ability of prophecy

I’m slowly trusting my journey

less worry and feeling empty

more looking pretty and feeling happy

basically my fantasy is becoming my reality

I know it’s a lot of hate towards me

so I study who’s family who’s an enemy

after all I been through

Heavenly Father, God given breakthroughs

Earthly Father, they call him Chick

give it second for it to click

that’s why I’m that chit chat chick

hashtag podcast slid that in real fast

but we’re no chickens

more like magicians

take a sec, let that sink in

you might wanna go within begin again

it’s no gimmick we come with a vengeance

you’re cuckoo

if you think I’m about to argue with you

no sneak diss, it’s straight attack

you better ask WWJD

I’m a lady of virtue

getting revenue

translating Hebrew

my protection flexin

and I ain’t talkin fashion

but I’ll show you reflection

confession not impression

you want attention I’m the attraction

class is in session

suspension no expulsion yes

I been the Urban Princess

I don’t have to impress

whether I’m in sweats or

telling time on my Rolex

I’m an Empress

Tikisha say less

if you only knew what my God would do for you too…

IYKYK I have a bird’s eye view