Black White Grey, a poem

I struggle with not being loved

but I don't want a struggle love

or a toxic love

struggle... to fight hard

toxic... poison

love a deep tender feeling of fondness and devotion

I want love

patient kind

I want love

it does not envy

jealousy living recklessly carelessly

desperately needing therapy

poetry to give me clarity

fantasy to keep my sanity

ability to use telepathy

successfully creating a legacy

melody ecstasy chemistry endlessly

ability to give you weaponry

successfully releasing your anxiety

inside of me the remedy supremacy

serenity prosperity destiny

damage

role model five years

did you deal with that so it no longer interferes

with the love I'm ready to give you

no looking in the rearview

I can make you better without using you

I want to know what you've been through

full of lies full of tries

look in my eyes no lies no tries

I see the sighs cries the disguise

the whys the allies the spies the goodbyes

rise

my king

use you use me

let me show you what I see and set you free

trust issues

sounds like tissues

what's next

a drunk text

I want a love that is dependable unbreakable dependable impeccable

incredible

I want to lift you up

right from jump

I know you prefer a dancer

but I'm an enhancer

I increase your value

they drag you I catch you

spiritually rationally passionately nationally internationally

I testify

you justify

fresh air

where alone or affair

I am sure you are aware I do not share

new registration this is a different kind of situation

kind of like an interrogation for information

education communication evaluation formation

beehive I don't drive but I strive for the best

lay on my chest feel my breast

you see what I possess won't leave you stressed and depressed

I confess I digest everything you've suppressed

I didn't leave my self-esteem no matter how it may seem

I think of myself as supreme

every man's dream

but I'll keep quiet stay compliant and private

you're a simp for me

oh you send you'll send for me

keep quiet no riot

hallucinating resonating

with every word you're saying

wondering if you're portraying yourself or betraying yourself

no side effects with all due respect

I don't expect you to be perfect

I expect you to protect

whoever you select connect elect

don't let your erect interject

self-respect

he who finds

reminds me the Most High provides

He guides He sends signs

He combines and binds our minds

all about us fuck them

you found a gem

I'm not going to turn on you

you have no clue I'm stuck to you like glue

feels like deja'vu

I think of that f'n tattoo

gunnin your ferrari

maids made I prayed I stayed

711 712 we're 714

I don't go to war

when I'm involved there is no score

there are no more or any before

corpse

no remorse

I support I adore you I pour in to you

I connect to the divine source for you

made an agreement to be in cohesion

whole unity I don't care about your prior promiscuity

we are using this opportunity to build a community

our relations establish foundations

creating nations for generations

high vibrations motivations conversations

congratulations celebrations

sensations in different locations

no limitations

on our love heaven sent from above

fit in me like a glove

we never quibble

I nibble fiddle in the middle

giggle tickle drizzle sacrificial

judicial I change my initials it's official

at the sound of the cymbal

releasing doves as a symbol

I struggled with not being loved

I didn't want a struggle love

or a toxic love

struggle... to fight hard

toxic... poison

love a deep tender feeling of fondness and devotion

I have love

patient kind love

it does not envy

no jealousy living recklessly carelessly

voluntarily getting therapy

poetry to give me clarity

fantasy to keep my sanity

ability to use telepathy

successfully creating a legacy

melody ecstasy chemistry endlessly

ability to give you weaponry

successfully releasing your anxiety

inside of me the remedy supremacy

serenity prosperity destiny

they say I'm dulu through and through

it's only a few a select maybe two

who know my view is true

I have ancestors and angels in my crew

making sure I have my bridal debut

causing a hullabaloo

an uproar for a month or more

pushin presidents setting precedents

saying I'm celibate wasn't an embellishment

a redevelopment of my faith

saith again

reduced y'all to a wraith

insubstantial thing

as I kiss my king

may this spring bring

back to the basics