Chapter 48 A Seer ...dear diary

a forbidden love

believe in the future

don't be blinded by love

by what YOU see a person can do

you have to learn to see what a person is doing

where are you at?

do you meet where I am going?

are you reminding me of where I used to be?

how do I feel?

I always honor myself. I know that by honoring myself, all things are working out for my good.

I trust myself.

is it the moments when you are all alone

literally all alone

hopelessly in love with what I see

thinking the stars are aligning

free will

aligned

offline

overtalking

unable to listen

talking but not being heard

who hears you

who listens to you

who didn't make it about them but kept it on you

who was

simply

being them

not who you saw but who they showed you

did it change

when

why

both sides to a story

so many versions of the story

the healed you that can't think of any qualifying circumstance

the version of you that remembers without hurt

the version of you that remembers without a heart

the version of you that is nonchalant, unbeknownst the lesson happening now to you

What speaks to your soul? What are your intentions?

Is the past still real to you? Is the past the past?

Love, it never stops... if it stops then there was never love.

Why did we "man make" unconditional love therefore inventing conditional love?

Why can't love just be

LOVE

never ending

understanding, it is what it is and that's what it is

respect

no conversations understanding two way conversations

no conversations understanding two way conversations

no conversations understanding two way conversations

respect, knows what would hurt that other person in the smallest way

do you see a hater or do you receive a hater

receive a hater, take on that negative energy and feed in to it and start doing the same thing as them

see a hater, don't take on the negative energy because you know there is a greater purpose and that hater gives you all the information you needed to know

robbed... this message will continue

delays

minor setbacks

inconveniences

messages

the messages never cease

pay close attention

have patience

don't listen to everybody you hear

you'll know what resonates

trust yourself, if you don't trust yourself who can you trust

think a lot but know your boundaries

you must have boundaries for every person in your life

how else do you measure if they are crossing the line

at what point were the boundaries in non-existence

pay close attention

did you establish boundaries in adulthood

while what happened in your childhood that changed

slow think patience think two sides disconnect

when you can't recall having boundaries just feeling open... does it feel like... love?

freedom?

Trust yourself by trusting your feelings

Trust yourself by trusting your body

Trust yourself by trusting which way to go no matter if you're alone or with someone

you trusting you you trusting them

you so in to it in to each other like a team of superheroes

you don't even notice what you miss cause you know together

together

together is better

God allow and give us the people we need to be.

mirrors

looking back or looking foward

who's talking to who

insecure

ended, in togetherness

meet them where they mirror you

do they mirror the shadow side

you know the shadow that you are trying to hide

or

do they mirror the elevated side

you know the side of you that remembers that place and share the feelings of freedom

or what about the one where it's just nothing

no reminders

no give

no take

freedom

it's like you see them and you don't care because there is a balance

balance

no measurement of give and take all while still trying to show signs of gratitude

it goes so unnoticed that now you try to think who do you have that relationship with

it slides right out

it comes to slide out but you stop it

you push

you try

I always wondered if I were called or chosen

does it rotate

12:12pm

August 24, 2024

does the path we take move us from called to chosen to chosen to called

does free will

flesh ultimately determine if you are called or chosen?

I am a god on this earth. I am a goddess on this earth. I am an earth angel.

I am The Most High God's son. I am The Most High God's daughter.

the chosen, you see trust no matter what their attitude is I don't give a fuck, like they actually don't give a fuck - said what they said - don't even have to worry about what's next cause they don't even care they are just happy... free... in the moment... relaxed

at all times, yeah we're flesh but the chosen can handle this role a bit more than others

until maybe they can't

gluttony

power

the called, pulled into

they learn to trust a spiritual connection, let go let God ...now they don't give a fuck about anything

chosen

Talk to me - who are the called and who are the chosen? which are you?

Which am I?

honest but polite

helps you see yourself

elevating you to the next level

you ponder your way of life

you see a higher version of you

Pink, Red, Yellow, Purple, Green

21, 613, 6, A, A, E, 611, 911, 119, 310, 333, 17

Paris, Central Park, The View, Arizona

Pharoah, Goyard, Cain, Abel, Gatsby, Venus

turtle, lungs, cigarettes, gambler, 2 blonde girls, rain, stars, hospital

everything written is a story

Psalm 91

Psalm 84

Psalm 89

The Most High God made a covenant with my chosen - are you chosen?

a covenant is an agreement

you see the provider of the covenant there terms typically don't just

unless

there is a negative reaction

a negative reaction to the terms and conditions to the agreement

changes the provider

second chances, do you make the best of it or do you fumble the ball

fumble

does that 1 fumble destroy your career or does that 1 fumble build your career

years later they all remember the fumble but nobody can deny your accomplishments

123

the first time, the second time, the third time

when does "time" run out?

does the universe do everything to get your attention?

Are you a recipient?

a crush on an oddball

attention to detail

distractions

sometimes feeling stupid is vulnerability

or naiveté

Why don't you see what's in your face?

you don't feel when you both sides

you don't even notice

but the truth is you always notice

you just don't always see

Wisdom

The Most High God

council - devil, angel

Gods and Goddesses here on this earth

the called and the chosen

What does your covenant say? The agreement you made with God - what does it say? What's your position in His life?

are you even communicating with Him? communicating, effectively

two way understanding

laughter at the days of coincidences

Step 1

Learn the terms and conditions of your covenant.

our brain works differently

how I see the bible may not be how you see the bible

how I see signs and synchronicities through animals, numbers

may not be how you see signs and synchronicities

but in order to understand the covenant

the terms and conditions

sometimes... sometimes you need an advisor

you have to trust your advisor

I'd say you have to love your advisor but that love as we discussed doesn't end

it loves at all times even in the bad even when it may slip up it loves

love knows it right and wrongs

love accepts mistakes because love understands mistakes

love deciphers what is a mistake and what is a lesson

you have to trust your advisor

Who advises you what to do? You?

influence vs advice

power to have an effect on someone or something

recommendations offered with regard to prudent future action

prudent care

You always make the choice - use your intuition

what are the terms and conditions of your covenant

Are you diligently seeking Him?

you, in your way

What is it that you do that you feel most comfortable? Most supported? Most understood? Who's there with you... imagine how many people are involved in the covenant

how strategic The Most High God has to be to keep up with your ever changing mind how your mind may or may not effect or is it affect those around you

is life taught in

coincidences versus consequences

life is understood backwards

you take a minute to process the coincidences

what if you understood the terms and conditions of your covenant

and you learned how to unlock coincidences

interpretation

a code book

a book you can pass down for generations to generations

I want them all to know I truly believe a cardinal is a loved one... they are loss or lost, they are right there

I've learned to understand backward to see forward.

Mirrors.

1:23am

Hebrews 11:6

Again, are you a recipient?

He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

A rewarder is a person or thing that gives or offers something in return for a service, such as money or the return of something lost.

opposites attract but the soul is the same ...mirror

the you before the face is washed, teeth brushed

opposite

it's simply you vs you

with each version of you seeking Him

understanding the terms and conditions of your covenant

the provider that isn't at will but is free will

Destiny?

Fate?

when you know you just know

and when you don't you just seek Him

in a way that shows care and wishing to do well and thoroughly in one's work or duties

when you think you "learned something"

test it

create and use that password

a sign is a sign

How do you know God is talking to you? ...when you trust you know, you simply know

and when you understand later that you got it wrong

you feel convicted

you pray about your honest feelings even the feelings you're ashamed of or have told yourself you don't recognize it because well, it's you... you aren't envious but you wonder why not you...

honest with yourself

honest with God

repent, cause we all are sinners

right and so wrong

delivered

you pray more, your trust more, you think of the goodness in all situations

this is hard because what happens when you trust the untrustworthy

you live

you see the untrustworthy

you learn because you never stop communicating with God

things become more apparent

you may have some things you wish you had done differently

but who dwells on the past

you only dwell on the past when you want to stay stagnant

if I am trying to move forward I have to pay attention to what is in front of me

because what's behind me is behind me

a thousand may fall at your side

ten thousand at your right hand

but it will not come near you

God keep me in the place of love keep me understood even when I feel misunderstood

when I misinterpret myself

good spirits when I feel bad

genuine and honest

free will

but the signs are always there

right in front of you

I have to keep seeking God. The more I seek God the more blessings are poured into the cosmos.

shit falling apart to see the big picture hurts

it's like the worst pain you've ever experience

until

you don't

until

you face something bigger

until

you learn your lesson

the last time

diligently

calm

peace

slow

the oldest profession, a high priestess

lighten up

I have control issues, which makes me want things to be in a certain order.

I have communication issues, which make me talk to the wrong person.

I know me therefore I diligently seek Him.

I always leave a gift, because there is power in giving.

2:12 am

19, Sun, Sunstone, Sunflower, White Horse

Clarity & Transparency

What does the bible say about favor?

favor, chosen, called, righteous

Labels - do they matter?

I like labels but they don't matter. I like labels because of the feeling it gives me... once I adapt myself as that label a goddess on this earth... feeling myself... I understand once again I like labels but it doesn't matter and the meaning of the label depends on who is using the word

is your act of kindness beyond what is due

are you most appropriate?

did you cry out?

are you morally right?

are you crying out to be chosen?

What if it all works out? What do you see?

see ...understand how you see things

journal, the code book, the family biblical reference book

Laid Back - White Horse

Have you ever been told I'll always be with you... what if that is the earthly covenant, the building of your spirit team... who deep down inside without a shadow of a doubt will you stand by no matter what?

no choice is a choice

and it's an ok choice

because at that time of no choice

your back up against a wall

nothing else could be done

accept it

accept yourself

for who you are where you all

chose yourself and work towards who you want to be

the written story

the covenant

seeking Him

paths straight

1 month

journal random moments

October 1 read a Proverb a day ...same or different?

from July to now, the future you, the October you

the you that you see

Your thoughts control your life... remember death comes first, death and life are in the power of the tongue

communicate with those you love

love hurts

but love keeps you feeling

the most painful love of all is the one of regret

what you should have done for yourself first and literally wish you could change it even if it didn't mean having that moment back but if you could just be free from it not like you forget it but it doesn't have you in a chokehold you're at peace you're calm and you eventually wish peace for all parties accountability to yourself not to them but

self betrayal

when you don't see yourself

when you love and don't let go

it just feels

2:52 am EST

the power of nature