Chapter 48 ...dear diary, I co-host a podcast
- Tikisha
- Sep 7, 2024
- 33 min read
Today 9/6/2024 9:33pm
I hope you read typos.
I want to die
I fee violated
me, I think you maybe you (or someone close to you)
are or were being watched
flies are spies
and since maybe just maybe because it was dead
that cycle had ended
call the store
You write them, you complain and you get a free coupon
have you seen the movie on Netflix and the girls are running a coupon scam
please go watch it I was entertained some of my diary material is from that movie
the man at the store was on a mission to bring them down and they won
but who is they
they depends on their side of the story
this is why self-love is the most important love
because how do you know how to love if you don't love yourself
if you don't know when to "put yourself first"
if you don't know when the surrender and allow and ask for help
how do you know when you stop blaming the other person for "noticing" and start knowing maybe
they just didn't see what you see
but they did what was right for them
what they saw
alignment, you see the same vision
when it's announced you tell the other person of what you see
and then the two of you become better together
Matthew 18:20
If I could only have issues with things that cost me money I would live in a perfect world.
A human doesn't cost money.
The labor and delivery cost.
Humans, you reading this and me writing this we didn't cost to be made
the labor, the amount of time we took to study ourselves or our partners
the delivery, the amount of time we waited on The Most High God to lead us
would be a savings
a savings grace
If I had waited on the Lord to lead me, the work I am doing wouldn't be so hard.
If I had waited on the Lord to lead me, the work I am doing wouldn't be so hard.
If I had waited on the Lord to lead me, the work I am doing wouldn't be so hard.
But I've been doing the work Lord
I've been doing the work
I may not be consistent and some days I miss the mark completely
I get up I go to work and I don't say anything to honor you
but I do the work
in the midnight hours... which is 3am, I recite the Lord's Prayer
because I don't know what else to do
I keep my bible open in my bed because I don't know what else to do
I focus on what I have and not what I don't have
starting with myself, God is within me and I don't want to kill God cause all this will completely fall apart so I have to respect myself as such, I want to live ...when God isn't ready to be in this body with me that's ...that's when I want to leave
because I cannot imagine my life without God
Where would I be without you?
I'm watching Finding Dr. John on Tube. It's very inspirational... it's one seen I'm like why did they show this kickboxing scene so slow it is so long?!?! because maybe somebody else likes kickboxing and maybe I just don't so you know what I did, I fast-forwarded
to the next step of life
Grace as a verb, an action
do honor or credit to (someone or something) by one's presence
Grace as a noun, a word used to identify any of a class of people, places, or things
courteous goodwill
sounds a lot like, alignment
two as one
word includes any class of people, places, or things
places the universe or "here on earth"
why classification best fits?
and the word was "any"
so universe or here on earth
hear
When I prioritize The Most High God and myself I am centered, balanced.
The issues then became only the things that cost me money. I no longer had to worry about what pr who I was surrounded by because I knew God would keep those who genuinely supported me around me and remove those that didn't... and all I had to do was stay true to myself - admit my faults, take whatever setback that came my way knowing I deserved it because God distributes vengeance and I kept trusting Him for whatever my higher good was, my higher purpose, my next level because I told myself, my ancestors didn't die for me to suffer and I believe that... my 61 year old mother told me "I know what I have to do" that day in the hospital she was trying to tell me but I didn't say what... 61 years old.
I praise God for her life which lead to my life to my son's life... I praise God for grace so when I don't get it right between me and Him he allows me one more chance but I've followed the rules I've learned and am learning in the bible. I mean no matter who wrote it, the one consistent thing we can say is love is kind.
Be kind. Do what's hard. Allow the Lord to let you feel convicted. Repent.
Open your mind.
Y'all I crack spiritual codes for a living ...call me, science is magic
we have our ancestor's land
here on earth waiting on us
in the universe waiting on us
any class, all of us
let's build up the love of God we have in ourselves by loving ourselves and worshipping God in a way that works to keep us
kind.
I want to talk about Deliverance but let me touch on what I remember from The Forge.
The mama... just wanted to teach her son how to be a man.
There are some that may think her mistake is speaking on the father some will say well she picked that father it's on her, the judgment goes on and on
the mistake
was she hadn't labored her relationship with God, God is within her (Psalm 46:5)
she will not fail but Habakkuk teaches us to wait, it will not tarry
because when it comes from God it was always worth the wait
this is why delay is not denial, when you're leveling up through Christ you are transforming into something greater and sometimes, sometimes you take what seems like a long time to really see
God will help her at the break of day, sunrise, Proverbs 31, she was preparing in the word in the mornings and then she tended to the family she was never overwhelmed because her household was in alignment
the vision
I think of Kris Jenner's age
the elders say if I had known what I know now then
Isaiah 40
from the beginning
because as she was nurturing her relationship with God in known and unknown ways her strength was building... and those she truly loved got stronger but what they decided to do with that strength was on them
and God
vengeance is His
stay calm act from a genuine place of kindness even when it hurts - discernment, is this hurt good or bad? This hurt feels so good because I know what I see
the impossible being possible
Matthew 19:38 (hummm... I meant, Matthew 19:26) did you go look up Matthew 19:38 it doesn't exists but if some of you just a little part of you were intrigued... like I was, it doesn't exist
You see some things you don't think exist, doesn't mean that they don't
but you looked, was it from a place of trusting the writer, curiosity, trusting yourself and not caring... either way it doesn't matter... your life didn't change
are you at a standstill? are you where you want to be?
what in your life based on what you've learned today that you would go back and change because you feel like now is your second chance at life
a missed opportunity
who's on the elevator with you to the next level, those you wouldn't trade for the world
who do you want to trade in? exchange? who needs a warranty? however whatever
because
sometimes when we place blame we are looking for an excuse ...well I did this
place blame, you need to look for a place to put it
because if you knew the God in you, you'd know using your intuition and gift of discernment when to act and when to react ...rewind, no better yet cut, Take 2
time to trash it and remind yourself vengeance is of the Lord
so chose the Lord, nurture it, get you a community ...podcast plug...
YouTube, Kolorflow Conversations to help you heal through day-to-day life
During the movie in the beginning the mother and son had a communication blockage, simply because it becomes so much for a single mother and sometimes just sometimes she's so busy (ok well me) was acting from my EGO and not as a
Random thoughts: 494 1919 1910 911 119 12929 216714, Nicki Minaj, rise above, 23, hawk, wild turkey, legend, cross, disciple, be a fountain not a drink, train, freedom, Joshua, Isaiah, rain, rebound, love, joy, peace, patience, when you follow Him something is going to die, red, blue, Trey, three, 12:02, earnestly seeking him don't be afraid of the gaps, love, 10%, 1212, safety, vengeance is the Lord, chose to forgive, journal, the anger of men does not produce the righteousness of God
I wrote Trey cause I watched them move Generational Gap on Tubi and I thought about this when they said Trey in the Forge... no clue the connection or if there is any but then I was connected to three instantly verse a name Trey. Uno... 2, 3 and yea my 3 is trey not what is it tres.
You believe in angels?
Well, I do and I believe I have three of them aligning things for me and my soul tribe for generations to come. I see the light in the door, saying come on in... do not be afraid for I am with you thy rod and thy staff comfort you
I think of how it says the darkest valley
you see I believe that sometimes we too deserve light, shine
I'm about to start watching Kaos on Netflix as I write about Deliverance. If you aren't interested in my non-horror more spiritual warfare theory then stop reading... this isn't for you but come back or read some other post and find your jams to read and reread. :)
Insert: I write out of order but I am about to come to a conclusion.
It's 09/07/2024 at 1:30am keep reading I am going to add my review of Deliverance at the end of this blog post... if you're ready to fight spiritually using your bible
instruction and teaching
keep reading
More random thoughts: Chile, horse men hidden inside the horse, today is the day, believe, red car, your love is dead, peacock, Gucci, wings, strawberry, crown, cowrie shells, 555, 622, change, butterflies, transformation, manifestation, intuition, lighten up, crane fly, creativity, knowledge, stay celibate, karma and repent, celebration, dreams come true, balance, finances, grief, unexpected, protected, November transformation, three, clown, down, 2up, articulate, throne, travel, release, clean, talk, cyberbully, stalker (done), appears unfazed but a happiness hater, job, promotion, travel abroad, take action, job or guy, stay afloat, 989, heal others, devotion, Arkansas, 3 years old, fire, Chicago - I think of Fireproof the movie... however I haven't watched it yet it was recommended to me after seeing the Forge - Atlanta, New York, Amir, going out, 1144, crystals, cardinals, action, go through hell, chosen, called, good gentleman, everything is energy so if I was giving you my energy and you misuse my energy it on you, protection, pray for our son's discernment, our black son's in the United States of America, be responsible for yourself, love, honor, plane, comfort, first class, quickness, bee, honey, renewal, orange, yellow, green, plants, 2% married, yellow, red, hated read, hated red, loved yellow, throat, code blue, 5, envy, greed, green, pink, 211, 1/2 everything, Paris, pink & blue healing, 113, 777, 717, 555, 444, 112, 111, don't take pictures, black crow, dead bird, flies, vomit, sick, black, basement, cat, Robin Rhianna Fenty, art is true, menstrual, water, bat, unity, camera, 902, dreams, blood on my feet, 611, black, purple, movies, popcorn 1993, Missy Elliott, Imaginary Friend, In Living Color, 2016, 323, God's will, faith, cross, talisman, wedding ring
pay attention, rain
Trust the Process
Heart love vs Addiction Love
Future engaged, alignment 222.
You feel better when things work out as they should.
I was thinking life is understood backwards, what if we read the New Testament then the Old Testament most of us already think we are living the last days
the last shall become first
let's become first
I truly believe the only way to understand the bible (for me) is to realize it's a book of journals, missing books, stories read told for ways of that prophet and seer to understand, sorta like in the Forge... Isaiah head the story of the mentor's son but he didn't know what God had done behind the scenes... but when he SAW it... the floodgates open.
Me I believe it to see it... you know, as soon as I get a glimpse if it's something that I want I believe it and I work with God the only way I know how and I receive what I believe... took forever to get that Ranger Rover and only lasted 2 years, loved every minute, but I don't miss it ...just believing my man is going to buy me my Lamborghini. How is me believing, being delusional hurting you?
Am I being kind, a good person - what does my character say, what have you seen not what you heard...
It's so many components, you may need to read that a few times to truly understand.
The levels it takes to healing to truly having an open mind, to see two ways even when the street is a one way because maybe just maybe you have to stop the car and walk the other way.
I'm walking standing on what my mother told me to stand on Psalms 23
and I'm sprinkling in what her sister told me to stand one Psalms 91
which I was already believing
because you see I never saw my father pray but I seen him go through hell on earth make it out
so can I
so how I trust God may be different than you... because I didn't see what you see
and my mother
well she thought me a lot of superstitious stuff
why do you think my house is surrounded by birds
angels
these beliefs keep me level headed, they keep me kind
in a place of giving and receiving
in a soft life
Listen think about what I've written, maybe even watch some movies
heal the hurt you within
hurt isn't always from childhood, some is from just a few moments not minutes ago
use the person you believe is hurting you, what flaws (to you) do they have
mirror yourself, look within, you attract what you are, you see yourself how people see you
alignment is the mirror, when you see the same
you mess up you can change, but some places you just shouldn't go
try to always be where you need to be, the true meaning behind stay ready so you don't have to get ready
You were always nurturing your inner goddess and sometimes when you see others are nurturing theirs things shift
remember the mirror
alignment
"coincidences"
you'll be confused just like you use your GPS, the addresses, the numbers
the
signs are the same
the numbers will guide you
if your prefer a map... that's fine too ...I want to see the overview so I can start picturing in my mind alternate routes... butt he places I go often I don't think of an alternate route because I've doubted for so long that I didn't realize I didn't have to doubt anymore because I knew the alternate route from going the right way so many times thinking I was doing the wrong way, thinking I was walking "backwards on a one way street" when I was simply going the way I was supposed to go, there was not right or left, just numbers, just counting my steps
they say - I just talked about the stuff I hate that I do and they say is one and liking or loving a text - but they say we need 10,000 steps a day because find your steps... and doing the podcast I learned Proverbs is one the best places for a beginner to start, the sister circle all read Proverbs for the month of July, 31 Proverbs.
31 days - I challenge you to start, truly start in October and see how your life transforms
you into a Proverbs 31 woman
sometimes I believe a women was first
Love Jones
because he who finds a wife
like Ruth in the field working
her job positioned her to meet her mate
she had 3 jobs
herself because there is nothing without her
so she must give herself to herself first, no ego or people pleasing
God is within her so every day she faces she knows it's on purpose, present
working diligently, earning a living
she cares for others and practices kindness
she practices, she does it daily knowing she's going to fail
when do you stop practicing?
if it's what you love you never stop, you keep going
always
even harder when you fail because you want it so bad
or it is badly either way you keep going for the goal
reasons don't matter, just keep going
most importantly
she fears the Lord and displays wisdom
in Proverbs you'll learn rather quickly
fear of the Lord is knowledge
Let's all join together daily in uplifting our sisters and brothers as a nation in prayer.
My friend taught me to pray for those who persecute me ...that was hard for me, I still struggle and when I see that dark side rising the rod and staff comforts me, reminds me vengeance is the Lord this is why I'm walking on the one way street to begin with I am trying to find my way home.
Where is your home? Who do you feel at home with?
but see
Adam came...
disconnect, nobody remembers where it started because it's been going on for generations and generations and the stories who can say what's true and what's not the stories change
books are missing
interpretation changes
and the bible works together as a whole, think of the references verses in certain bibles
you need to read so much at once to get a full understanding, which of us has truly taken the time to do that... those authors, so what works for them works for them ...but just think of the time and effort put in to reading all the works of the bible together as it was intended... they say
here I go again with they say, but basic instructions before leaving earth,
Bible
too much Kardashians (don't judge me, we growing here) but truth is I don't watch it now but I kinda want too... I ask my sister
Kim rich or Beyonce rich
you see master taught us to compare
my only master is the Lord
so I won't compare, I will try my best to use my gift in the present.
The present is now, today... are you using the gift God gave you? How are you using it?
Remember the devil consulted the Lord - Job.
Vengeance is who's? the Lord
some will say I can't believe you believe in a God that would hurt his people
Well, I remember the most kindhearted lady I've ever met you see it was her aura I don't know why type of life she lived but for me she was might light - it didn't matter what she was doing cause what she did was bring me closer to God to my spiritual side - told me I rather believe than see him and he's real and I didn't believe and this is why I
believe it to see and when I truly started believe what I see and using oracle cards to enhance my gift I really starting seeing the impossible and I guide others to seeing the impossible, the thing that was once a dream, just like the Range Rover ...and I remember the other dream I want a Challenger ...I was pissed, meanwhile my sister loved her ...I had got what I wanted but the delivery wasn't on the day I expected ...just like that newborn baby, sometimes they don't come on date expected they come when God sends them... each year of your life is a new birth, this is why the date of death is better than the day of birth
what are you works at time of death
judgment, even if you don't believe in a judge
where is your soul, your spirit.. where is it going?
a good name is better than find perfume
study material things are meaningless - study what is inherited - given....
your character speaks
There are so many things I don't remember or didn't know about my mother but I know her character and to me, to have a piece of that is better than the finest things in life.
My life is her piece, her peace. The bible tells us to honor our parents so that we may live long, so we honor them no matter the hurt they've given us, we honor them... it doesn't say stop when they die it says all the days of our lives... we honor them... so as long as we breath we should honor our parents
If this doesn't resonate with you, then okay... it ain't for you, again I'm worried about me and I share what God tells me to share to keep me in alignment.
We are all pigs... but the hogs, the seven sins feed us and then we become hogs and the hogs, well they get slaughtered. God directs the path... think of all the things involved in direction. The ways, the organization that has to go on... think of the street lights... the synchronicities, the moments where the lights are out and you don't know if it's your turn to stop or not... or maybe you always know... maybe you're Chosen.
Chosen vs Called
because Job the Lord's faithful servant was tested
in those moments we believe, he knew he was Called
but it's when it came to pass / past he knew he was Chose
...I don't know how it goes, I'm just hearing trusting God and if it's meant for me to understand more thoroughly He'll tell me
I hear allegedly, no two prophecies are never the same.
I hear only humans receive prophecies.
The right place and the right time. This is our chance. Kaos Reigns.
Grace
When you know you're falling out of love but don't want to let go... I guess this when - which is something we believe that's not in the bible, what's the origin of this statement... if you love something set if free if comes back to you it's your if it doesn't it never was
I trust God to keep me in alignment, what I am going through I deserve.
I know understand Chilli and Usher - it just wasn't meant to be (yet, lol) but it ain't my business
Vengeance is the Lord, even towards me. I just want to be better, help others be better.
karma, consequences, delays, denials, whatever...
Life is short I want to enjoy what was written... land, gardens, fountains, flowers
Bees
She said she wanted to know about the tattoos... the sleeve -
my artist, Angel born on 7/11
coincidence?
I believe in angels. I hear the gap between perception reality can be cruel.
I started seeing 711 alllllllllll the time.
Ok boom, I believe in angel numbers.
I don't know Angel's birthday ...remember you have to get to know a person, I got to know my tattoo artist, enough for me to invite her to her wedding ...I wasn't able to go, but we were balance in each other lives for the right season... I watched her business grow while I lost my job but the faith grew, she tattooed around faith
my first was dedicated to my mother and my dog who I felt so guilty that I had to put down, but to watch him suffer was even harder
my mother's handwriting, my father's handwriting, my son's handwriting
three
the bees, production... honey... I want to be sweet
the spider, because I wanted to be able to see with more than just my 2 eyes
and I needed a web to capture my prey because I'm still a predator
my name to remind me, you see me... me I'm me
written right about intentions show
simply learn your God given love language
the one you understand yourself through Him
you understand Him though yourself
follow His commands, the commands he's telling you personally
sometimes you will get confused
this is why you are kind because when you build a community those in your community will guide you to where you need to be, they become a part of your compass
but you never stop, keep going, keep trusting, keep being kind and your compass will tell you when you need to turn your directions and what to look for, that mile mark...
one way, two-way, freeway, highway, side street, sidewalk, road closed, detour, construction
yield, stop, go
just get there, know the straight path
Psalms 23
In Uakeisha's voice: Be a Good Human!!!!!!
This is why I believe now we can raise son's we just need to be equipped in the physical world and the spiritual realm.
Proverbs 1:8 - both we need the mother and the father
father gave instruction
mother gave teaching
Instruction the act of teaching or providing guidance, information, or direction on how to do something, as in step-by-step instructions. Teaching is the process of imparting knowledge, skills, or values to others, as in helping on understand.
The bible for the physical to access the spiritual.
We need both instruction and teachings we need instruction to learn and we need someone to teach out... some of us learn better in groups some learn better alone
learn
learn yourself, learn those around you
be the fountain not the drink, pour ...the power shuts the fountain off not the drinkers
Where does your power come from? Who's your source?
Last November 11/1 I was on a plane to Las Vegas and "pink lady on the plane" told me the mother was the Moon and the father was Saturn. A few other things I wrote down from that trip was Trump, 5775, Welcome to Las Vegas sign, 52, the letter L, he has a stomach (I remember my friend giggling saying well it ain't Future), white light of protections, 2 years, health, meditate, Mars is male, Spiritualist Church. I wrote down one of the songs that was playing in one of the Uber rides - Dear Alcohol.
In 06/29/2024
Amelia, Miami, Jasmine, Blue, Safe
The Alpha & The Omega
Wisdom & Discernment
You won't believe that it's 1:11am but you will I'm going to add a picture.
Cheers to new beginnings... connect to the divine source, The Most High God
cause me, I'm connected
I'm a goddess on this earth
you can hate me now, but I won't stop now
win again
oops, ego talking convicted
vengeance is the Lord's and I'm no exception
Lee Daniel's the Deliverance
I think of Daniel. I think of Psalms. I'm a Psalms girly!!! I am poorly educated in other areas of the bible so I study what I'm lead to study as I'm lead to study but I'm reading a chapter from the book of Psalms daily. I've been drawn lately to read Ecclesiastics so I'll be reading that soon.
I see the word clergy.
I really don't want to watch it again to analyze it. I want to trust the process and believe I know enough and that God will send me a mother and father, instruction and teaching.
I am going to say demon
but it can be anything negative anything you are fighting not to feel simply because it feels bad
sometimes the demon is you
1:44am but God assigned this "problem" to you
you need to know your tools and how to use your tools to fix the "problem"
who really wants to hear the doesn't give you more than you can bare ...it's true
cause when you can't bare anymore you stop cause you simply can't bare it, you give up
just know when the giving up is good, know when to walk away
Here's what I remember -
Grandmother
Daughter
3 children
"haunted house"
The haunted house housed the demon. What are you housing in your body? What soul ties have your created, what soul ties are you creating? In real life, the physical realm, we go to haunted houses for fun but our spirit just might be fighting to get out of that same haunted house... the darker ones, the unknown ones, the unexplainable ones
It wasn't so much the house, it was what was inside of it. We say He knows our heart.
Vengeance is His and he knows what is inside of us... what goes in much come out.
Poop or Pee
Leslie Wright's voice you will not fail. Trust.
The grandmother was what we would probably call a born-again Christian. She gave her life to Christ a little later in life. When she finally saw the demon for herself, because she didn't believe her daughter - she had to see it for herself and once she saw it she went to the only place she knew was equipped to handle this, or so she thought, her church to ask for help - again, the only place she knew at the time to go. However, the church turned her away.
The grandmother ended up passing away.
The grandmother's relationship with her daughter was strained but in between their abusive relationship (past, present, mental, physical) they loved each other the best they could based on where they were in life at that point in time - the grandmother learned how her daughter who was struggling to pay bills was paying for her medical care, she had cancer, because her insurance was no longer accepted by that facility... but the daughter knew she liked that place, the grandmother even met a guy there and they starting dating.
2:02 am (no lie)
Again, the grandmother ended up passing away and the demon was still "demoning".
I hear pray for my demons. Pray for those who persecute you... Prayer.
The daughter ended up going to jail because they were thinking the daughter was abusing her kids. I chuckled because the asked the daughter if she did drugs and she said - does weed count, my question on today does it count as a drug? We say plants are from the earth... now my mind is like how is crack made... let me stop, let me slow my brain down, let me focus
let me focus on what's for me
releasing this blog, sharing my story
Have you ever woken up with bruises before? I have. I remember having scratches on my back thinking it was from my dog, I've gotten more scratches no dog, I've woken up with bruises on my body - signs, pay attention
The social worker later has an encounter with the "possessed son" the youngest son and when he says something to her only she knows... she knew what the daughter had said was real.
She didn't believe to see it but she believed when she saw it
In the end she supported the daughter even told her, I wish I had faith like you
because at this part of the story the daughter even though the demons were released
she still hadn't gotten her kids back
the ending is of her winning the battle, in her car, with her 3 children, driving to a new beginning
Philadelphia
Things I remember the daughter had 1 child at home but while she was praying the "demons" were released from her other children - let's remove the theatrics (even though this is a TRUE STORY keep that in mind, so this shit can happen and you need to be prepared) no rising from the beds no climbing walls just knowing the demons were released
through the word of God
she had dropped the oil
all she had were her hands and her mouth
she recited The Word and buried that demon
she even spoke in tongues (to me this represented her doing things that you may or may not believe in but she did something, she did what she needed to do to kill the demon) I didn't grow up around that so I don't understand it, God has never moved me that way so I don't understand it, but I have an open mind, because... it's a part of me being kind, respecting others
and respecting myself enough to establish boundaries when I realize what works for me
the spirit led me, not the ego me
What a person "deserves" is not up to you
Ephesians 6:17 to fight soldiers have helmets, weapons, and words - they have to communicate and it starts with the four-star general or admiral... so to attack the spiritual realm you have to wear your salvation on your head and carry the spirit with you at all times, which is your sword... your protection. The Word of God is your protection. The Word protected her family, unfortunately her mother was the sacrifice. The "wake up" call. The cause of the awakening.
The healing of her grief. The beginning of her trusting God.
When I think of the lady that praised God for her daughter's life (podcast episode 23 - I go check and the commercial is 1:11 minutes long)... that mother is prepared. She praised God when she was hurting the most, not just for herself but her other children. He daughter's spirit is with her, her daughter is her DNA. They say a child's DNA stays with the mother for decades or a lifetime - in the brain, blood, liver... tissue repair ...autoimmune conditions. I read this is still being studied - but she was my real-life example.
I don't know about child to mother I just know honor your parents.
I think of Louise Hay's book - Heal your body.
Are we taught the word of God is the sword of the spirit?
Are we taught death and life are in the power of the tongue?
Tongue, words ...are affirmations simply words
She killed the demon with bible verses. The apostle came to her, she was watching her - she had seen what was to come... but the daughter "didn't believe in that kind of stuff" until her love for her children outgrew her beliefs, "nothing to lose" or lose everything, her kids... so she reached out to the apostle however, the apostle couldn't do it alone, she tried... she died, but her guilt had already eaten her alive... she needed (in my opinion) to release the guilt and ask for help because she already seen how powerful this demon was... The apostle told her I go where God send me. Act, cast out demons, Jesus Christ is my intercessor, demons will run
Again, the apostle died she couldn't match the strength of the demons.
I remember the Apostle saying 1/3 followed the devil and became demons and demons prey on the weak. She told the daughter "I think you think this is transactional it's not" "You gotta know your are loved"
God love you. Believe it to see it or see it to believe it, just believe.
Partnership - where you are weak, I am strong and when I am weak, I know you're my strength.
God align me with strength.
When the boy broke the restraints in front of the social worked and said her son's name that was never mentioned in the movie before (don't remember the order) I just remembered she became a believer, mustard seed because again later she said "I wish I had your faith" but what I noticed is the room was on the 5th floor.
I always think of change with the number 5.
The daughter got her baby out of the hospital. She wasn't giving up on her baby... it was buy any means necessary and at this time the apostle was still alive guiding her... the apostle told her demons will take the form of people you love
this is what I think of when I hear familiar spirits, I think of those I know not the deceased
I have no fear when it comes to honoring my ancestors. I have no fear when it comes to trusting and worshipping God the best way I know how, the way he's showing me today... doesn't look like the way I used to years ago... I'm 48 let's hope with age I've grown and I'm not doing the same ole thing, God is powerful, if He's all knowing, didn't he know of the technology to come... but some things have been here all along like oracles, seers, prophets... even tools because what exactly is the Urim & Thummim?
be prepared to fight but know who to fight for
I can do all things through Christ... they tell us stories of laying hands
but in 2024 reiki is demonic
I remember he hears what in here, my heart... guard your heart.
My tattoo, a sword going through my rib cage, although it doesn't go through the heart at some point it pierced the heart, because there is one drop of blood dripping from the sword.
The words fuck love. We have that love hate relationship with life... it's 3:03 am. I been typing for a long time and I called myself putting on Just Wright to speed up the distraction process to focus on writing because I know this movie!
It's times when you just don't know... 2 words: mustard seed. Matthew something, 18:20 maybe
I asked him to stop, showed cross and what happened nothing
I think of The Forge and the cross necklaces they wore
makes me think of my crystal bracelets
it's not the jewelry, it's no sin in wearing the jewelry, it's the intentions
evil or good, intentions, He knows your heart and vengeance is His
so you are equipped to fight
1/3 of 100 is 33.3333
but angel numbers are demonic
simple mathematics and it's 333
3, Father, Son, Holy Spirit
333, 3s period always remind me Spirit is with me
444 protection
555 change
these are my personal codes, not what's on Google or in a book, this is through trial and error of trusting the process
The daughter saw she had no one else but herself, she pulled out the power from within, the God in her and again killed the demon.
We wear wedding rings as symbol of love when I believe the origin is actually ownership and symbolism of property
but in 2024 wearing a hamsa, evil eye is demonic
Things are not demonic, spirits are... which spirit in within you? 1/3 of the angels...
I did more listening to the movie than watching, but I do remember the dead black cat. I go to wikipedia and read the plot to see what "sign" I missed... it says the dead cat appeared in the basement where there is a large hole in the unfinished concert floor
it also says after the son would go in the basement he would enter a catatonic state
Catatonic (cat) is associated with schizophrenia, but let's keep it simple
abnormality of movement
The dead cat was a sign. The daughter's son, all of her children, behavioral changes were a sign.
The mother in The Forge knew she needed reinforcements, she read the signs she did not chose to ignore them and knew which path to take next, call for reinforcements... the prayer warriors
Why are they the warriors?
the soldier fights in a disciplined environment, an organization, a group
but the warrior fights independently
the things I've fought alone... impatient, anxious
Wait on the Lord!
I think of the dead possum in my father's basement. I think of the black cat appearing at my house out of nowhere... on the night of my sister circle last September and staying here all fall and winter but I remember she left when I was in the sunken place... overthink, was I too much what I not enough... am I going crazy? is there even a connection... you have chairs, with covers, it's cold as hell, she's a stray trying to survive... the cat doesn't mean shit?!?! Or does it??
and then a wild turkey... a hawk... deer, bunnies, geese, dragonflies, cicadas, butterflies
more and more and more
last year 3:33am a racoon on the roof
I decided to trust the process and wait patiently, because I didn't know which way to go so I kept praying for clarification of the "signs" ...I remember when my brain said feed the birds, I remember watching the movie Madame Web and it was understood her deceased friend came to her window as a bird, a pigeon. I'll probably never watch that movie again but just like with everything else that happens in life whether good or bad I try to have a take away -
What did I learn?
The world is a magical place.
The movie ended on a sunny day, because joy comes in the morning - at sunrise.
I've housed a lot of demons, but I've freed even more. If I die co-creating my life with the Lord (free will), fighting for myself, my son, and those I love while reaping abundance and prosperity just know... I've lived a life I was proud to live.
I am happiest when I'm with those I love, the love language I want to receive is quality time.
The love language I give is gift giving.
My mother was my quality time and my father was my gift giving... my aunts, cousins, and friends were my quality time and my lack thereof...
The little insecure girl trying to figure things out, finally figured things out ...but she knows, just like the seasons and moon phases, change is coming
reap and sow
me, just praying I get through and have those that truly love me and I love right by my side
I remember my aunt saying when you forget say St. Mary three times.
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This is why I believe in more than just what's written in the bible, because the bible it old I haven't seen what's in the bible - never seen anyone raised from the dead
but the move The Deliverance is demonic
the dead coming alive, what do we call that? in all seriousness, I don't know
Lazarus, a friend of Jesus... dead for 4 days... (4 my numbers of protection)
Jesus was moved by grief and love
This is why I say sacrifice - this was a foreshadow of Jesus Christ sacrifice for our sins
but in 2024 a seer using oracle cards is demonic
oh wait, it's because I'm not God
but wait - God is within me... again, I don't know
4 minutes ago new music alert Mega Thee Stallion, Neva Play
I believe our deceased loved one sacrifice for us in the spirit world just like they did in the physical... and wouldn't you know it the story of Lazarus being raised from the dead is found in John 11:1-44
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111
144
11, 1, 44
so many options to find out who's your Lazarus
who passed away that God allows to assist you from the spiritual realm? 4:04am
no psychic - no mediumship ...but I believe it's real, just not my gift
God talks to us all but you have to be able to listen, hear, process instructions
How do you HEAR the Most High God?
I also believe what I've seen to work - the unwritten ancestor's instructions ...so yeah, I may do some stuff labeled as "hoodoo" or "witchcraft" but I do what feels right for me, what keeps the peace with the one person I have to spend time with the most - Me, I make her happy first.
The apostle didn't save the daughter, the daughter didn't save her 2 sons and 1 daughter- God did. Her faith activated that... the apostle lost her life, doing the work of the Lord, doing the work called her to do she said "I go where God sends me".
I googled Sonya Massey and this is what it says: When stared down the barrel of a gun and the officer that used it to take her life, she declared, “I rebuke you in the name of Jesus.” It was an authoritative cry against the injustice she, and unfortunately countless others, have faced.
This is spiritual, even if you don't watch The Deliverance - it's time for us all to be delivered from this hell on earth.
2 or more... can't do it alone, basic instructions
I can't make this stuff up!!
711 my angel number perfectly describes me by Isaiah 7:11 ...the chapter of thinking this is wrong I shouldn't do it, shouldn't tempt God, but being reassured, it's okay ask for a sign
but I decide do I ask as deep as Sheol or as high as heaven
the choice is mine and I'm going high as heaven
my angel number was my bible verse and how I connected with God
You see I started with repeated numbers, but when I hit my new beginning, I started seeing palindrome numbers... but I never stopped seeing repeating numbers or 711 ...I didn't understand the palindrome numbers at first ...google really didn't help, the 1 article I found didn't really support my thoughts, it didn't resonate, but then I realize... what does it mean to me, flip... reverse... it could go either way...
I felt like something was happening but since I couldn't find any written information
I had to talk to source, God to get an understanding...
my life had shifted... I was unemployed... I was trying to start a business, but didn't okay don't know much about running a business... but I knew I was being given the opportunity to essentially reverse some decisions I made previously and begin to make better ones
and then 117 was born
I google it and get Psalms 117, I'm not sure if that's what is next ...if that's all I needed to know but trust me I'll be talking to God praising him and honoring my angels all the way
I hope something I've said has opened your mind...
Animism, nature based spirituality
there is also pantheism, panentheism, ecotheology ...so much to learn, be open too
I don't ask if the sign is a sign - I trust the sign. I thank God when I see the sign. I question the sign by asking God to direct my path "at the end of the day, the day is going to end with or without me" so I just trust...
I study how to trust God. I study how I hear from God.
Romans 8:28
Tikisha
In honor of The Forge here's a prayer for our sons and when you finish log in to comment Amen
Where is my support? Will you be my two or more?
Isaiah 40
Heavenly Father,
I come before You today, lifting up my son and black men across this nation allow their instructions to come together with the teachings of our daughters and black women across the nation.
Lord, You know the struggles they face, both seen and unseen. You know the challenges that come against them, the battles they fight, and the dangers that surround them. But God, You are greater than every obstacle. You are the source of all strength, wisdom, and protection.
I pray that You cover them with Your mighty hand. Shield them from harm, both physical and spiritual. Protect their minds from lies that tell them they are less than or unworthy. Remind them daily of their worth, their power, and their purpose, for they are fearfully and wonderfully made in Your image.
Lord, guide their steps in a world that often seeks to limit their potential. Grant them courage to rise above the injustices they face, strength to overcome adversity, and wisdom to navigate every trial. May Your Spirit be with them, giving them discernment in their decisions and clarity in their vision.
Bless them with opportunities to succeed, despite the barriers placed in their path. Surround them with love, support, and mentorship from those who believe in their greatness. Let their gifts and talents shine brightly, and may their lives testify to Your goodness and mercy.
Father, we know that no weapon formed against them shall prosper, for You are their refuge. Lift them up, Lord, so they may be examples of perseverance, hope, and triumph. Empower them to be leaders, change-makers, and voices of truth in a world in need of justice.
I thank You in advance for the victories they will achieve, for the chains that will be broken, and for the mountains they will climb. In Your name, they will rise above every attack, known and unknown, and succeed beyond all expectation.
In Jesus’ name Amen - Ase' - As above so below - As within out without
In The Forge
her work for her son was gathering a community to worship the Lord
her faith was standing on the Word
she did nothing "physically" she didn't look for someone
but she looked for someone
she didn't go out in the world and look physically for strangers to help, she went to her community and they petitioned the Lord together
and the Lord directed her son's steps
he position him and he became a man of honor
and while he was upset she had asked him to help financially, as her way of teaching him to have some adult responsibilities - it wasn't a pay to live here, it was a show me some appreciation do it with ease, it was I'm trying to teach you to provide, to be a provided by the only way I know how right now and that's providing me with rent money
she saved that money and got his mentor of course knew somebody because that's what God does when you trust Him, he doesn't give you people he gift's them to you
a present on present day, now
all you have is now
adversities will come but teamwork will conquer
In The Deliverance
you can tell the grandmother and the daughter had a strained relationship
you can tell the daughter was doing the best she could trying to battle her internal demons
vices, we all have them ...she dealt with mommy issues, daddy issues, alcoholism
she didn't believe in the church, her mother did and it was not help
she had nothing else but the perseverance to continue
God positioned her helpmate and even though she lost her helpmate she was powerful enough in the Lord to slay the dragon
Psalm 91
Moses lived a long life but didn't make it to the promise land, due to an act of disobedience.
Genesis 12:7
Number 20:7-12 (712 I see a lot, Future's song is 712 - hey I'm a fan)
Deuteronomy 34:1-5
Promised Land is where the Israelites would settle after their deliverance from slavery in Egypt.
you see sisterhood is so messed up because we think helpmate is a man
helpmate is a helpful companion, gender neutral "especially one's husband or wife"
the definition does not state "only" a husband or wife
...Moses's successor, Joshua, leads the Israelites into the Promised Land.
The name of the mentor in The Forge, Joshua Moore
and the messy girl, who was learning was name Keisha
just saying ...I'm sure if Keisha had a movie after witnessing what God did for her peer
Elizabeth Jordan and her son Isaiah Wright
I betcha Keisha would be __ go see the movie and you tell me
go for free The Forge (egifter.com)
Thank you for being my sister in Christ and helping me get to the Promised Land.
Who have you been strong for while they were weak? Who's your Day 1 Soul Tribe member?
Do you pray for everyone in your life? Do you pray for everyone in your child's life?
Forgiveness. Acceptance. Acceptance. Forgiveness.
Self-Love. Freedom.
5:11am
Amen!
AMEN.
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